For the moments I feel like letting go

This morning, while I was studying for my Logic class and since I was feeling fine I thought of writing myself a list of things to keep in mind next time I start to feel overwhelmed by everything around me. It served as an excuse to avoid studying, anyway.

  • You don’t know what is going to happen. You despise pseudo-sciences so you might as well admit that you cannot tell the future. Stop pretending that you know that you’re destined to fail if you openly claim that the sole idea of ‘destiny’ is ridiculous and disgusts you.
  • Remember how good it feels when you are calm. See how differently your thoughts can flow when you find yourself in a clear-thinking oasis. Get rid of your depression and anxiety and then try and refute your own depressive claims.
  • Don’t compare yourself. The reason why successful people actually succeed is because they stay loyal to their own goals. After you get rid of whatever is clouding your thoughts set some goals and start achieving them. Don’t be afraid of revising them and change them if you consider them relevant. Try not to change them that often or you’ll be missing the point of having them.

  • You like numbers and statistics, right? The chances of you being alone for the rest of your life are so low that it’s even laughable to point them out. As long as you don’t think of meeting that special someone every single day then most probably when you’re least expecting it Miss Awesome will make her entrance.
  • Get some fresh air. I know you cried in public many times and the fact that people don’t seem to care freaks you out. Keep in mind that most of them are as afraid as you are of talking to strangers and they don’t even have a clue of what to say to some guy crying. But besides that, when you get so deep inside your head not even a rescue team would be able to get you out so… Get out of the house.
  • Whenever you think people hate you, they don’t. Do the test: engage yourself in a conversation and see what happens. Oh you’re too afraid! Then maybe is not that they hate you bur rather that you’re using this as an excuse to avoid the issue.
  • People most of the times is simply stupid. Even if you’d like to talk about genetics, technology, philosophy or the universe all the time and people can’t follow what you’re saying it doesn’t mean you’re not smart, it means they just don’t care (or just don’t have the brains to do so). While you’re around other philosophy students do the the test of randomly bringing out the topics of your interest but looking for nothing but random hallway conversations. I bet you’re going to be surprised.
  • Even if the internet feels like a safe place, that’s not always the case. Let’s admit it: internet can be a hell of a time waster. Try using more of the time spent wandering online reading a book or doing something else. You know it feels good when you do that.
  • Don’t hurt yourself. Instead of inducing any harm to yourself try doing something nice or getting something you’d like to eat. Be calm.
  • It’s okay to hate someone else than yourself. Even when you’re tempted to blame yourself for everything that happens to you (and even if in good measure you could be held responsible for most of it) just remember that a lot of things escape your control and that some people deserve being hated. Don’t stop yourself from thinking how much you’d like someone to suffer but stop yourself from applying that suffering to yourself.
  • Breathe.
  • Don’t kill yourself. Living just because someone else would be sad if you died is a pretty bad reason. It’s true that you didn’t have the choice to avoid living but since you are alive, make the best of it. You will die soon enough and right before that you’ll realize you didn’t have enough time.
  • Smile. Even when smiling makes you want to cry, just smile.

Image taken from the “Wristcutters: A Love Story” poster, one of my favorite movies.

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