This morning, while I was studying for my Logic class and since I was feeling fine I thought of writing myself a list of things to keep in mind next time I start to feel overwhelmed by everything around me. It served as an excuse to avoid studying, anyway.
- You don’t know what is going to happen. You despise pseudo-sciences so you might as well admit that you cannot tell the future. Stop pretending that you know that you’re destined to fail if you openly claim that the sole idea of ‘destiny’ is ridiculous and disgusts you.
- Remember how good it feels when you are calm. See how differently your thoughts can flow when you find yourself in a clear-thinking oasis. Get rid of your depression and anxiety and then try and refute your own depressive claims.
- Don’t compare yourself. The reason why successful people actually succeed is because they stay loyal to their own goals. After you get rid of whatever is clouding your thoughts set some goals and start achieving them. Don’t be afraid of revising them and change them if you consider them relevant. Try not to change them that often or you’ll be missing the point of having them.
Continue reading ‘For the moments I feel like letting go’
I woke up.
I’ve been too anxious for the past two weeks, like it’s really starting to bother me. Yesterday I read more than three ‘wikihow.com’ guides on how to deal with anxiety. I didn’t learn as much as I learned from the guide on how to deal with stress, but still I found them enlightening.
I’ll be back home on Monday; I came to Buenos Aires two weeks ago, but since all of my friends are somewhere else and my only friend in the city is leaving for two weeks, I’m going back to see if I can relax in my hometown.
Right now for some reason I’m listening to Augustana, which I haven’t really listened in quite a long time. All The Stars and Boulevards is a great album.
But like I was saying, today after I washed my face with cold water I went to the rooftop and while the sun was already starting to heat the earth, I sat down and stood in a yoga-like position for almost ten minutes, just breathing.
I don’t know if it did something on me, but right now I wouldn’t like for anxiety to take over me once again.
I’ll try just to focus on my breathing when the weakness is coming on.