Lately I’ve been listening a lot to Jack’s Mannequin, more specifically to the album ‘Everything in Transit’.
I can’t help but hum or sing those songs all day long.
It’s so weird how we can manage to rediscover our own feelings just by being close to some people that is special for us. It truly feels like you are living a brand new life when you are sure that you have never lived anything like what’s happening to you.
Sometimes it feels like her side is the only place in the world where I fit in, and sometimes I even scare myself by thinking that it’s getting harder to be anywhere if it’s far from there.
You can breathe, you can breathe now.
You can breathe but the air is running out.
Note: I just found this, lost between old papers from high school. I wrote this down from boredom two years ago. It isn’t that well written, and it may be incorrect in some places, but what the heck, I’m posting it. After all, I needed to be the person I was in order to become the person I am.
Have you ever felt that the world as we know it was just about to end?
Tom DeLonge, the frontman from Box Car Racer and Angels and Airwaves (formerly from pop-punk trio blink-182) was probably inspired by this thoughts when he wrote the self-titled debut and only album by Box Car Racer.
The album deals with subjects such as well, the end of the world, romantic stories where the singer offers safety and his company to his loved one, and even deals with depression and feeling of being overwhelmed by the events of our life.
The album came out during the first hiatus that blink-182 took back on 2002 after their Take Off Your Pants and Jacket promotion tour, when singer and guitarist Tom DeLonge suffered a back injury and was behold to stay home and rest. During that time, as claimed by DeLonge himself, he was going through a lot of things and struggling with pain, having a lot of powerful thoughts, many of them finally inspiring the songs that made their only album.
This album features lots of acoustic guitars, accompanied by heavy distorted guitars and unique powerful drumming by Travis Barker (also from blink-182).
Box Car Racer also counted with additional guitar duties by David Kennedy, and although all the bass parts on the album were played by Tom, on tour a bassist named Anthony Celestino played those parts.
Highlights from the album are:
- Watch the World: an optimistic song written about apocaliptic times where the singer offers everything he has to his loved one and believes that “they will make it through”.
- Cat Like Thief: featuring Tim Armstrong from punk band Rancid on vocals, it counts with a simple guitar riff on loop that makes the melody even more interesting. It’s a great song overall.
- Letters to God: this song is almost entirely played by Tom on his acoustic guitar and then breaks into heavy distorted guitars when reaching its end, making this song one of the most powerful songs on the record. It has that Box Car Racer trademark sound, it’s lyrically beautiful with the singer confessing his thoughts and saying that ‘maybe he doesn’t wanna go’. One of the saddest and most emotional song on the record.
- There Is: one of the most romantic and sincere songs that were ever written. A completely acoustic song that deals with the need for someone and just singing yourself to calm and have the certainty that ‘there’s someone out there who feels just like you’.
- Elevator: a very simple but yet impressive song that features Mark Hoppus (the third member from blink) on half the vocals. It is a very graphic narration of a man jumping from a building rooftop, told in first person (by Tom) and then from the view of a passer-by, therefore, in third person (by Mark).
Watch the World, for your listening pleasure.
Have you ever woken up one day just to see a poster on your wall that you had always thought it was cool but never put too much attention on it, and then it happens: you notice how it was the coolest thing you’ve ever seen?
I used that lame metaphor in a failed attempt to explain my recent crush on one of my bestest friends.
I won’t go into too many details right now, I’m just going to say that I was this close to giving up on everything and then suddenly it happened. She was valiant enough to tell me something that completely changed my point of view on some subjects.
I’m sick of my own depression. I can’t stand thinking about all this negative stuff all the time, I need to change.
A lot of things are happening around me, most of them aren’t directly related to me but in some way they do, and at the same time I’m facing a lot of new things all the time.
I’m not doing really well in college… I dropped out of Mathematical Analysis and I’m considering dropping out of Physics too. In fact, I’m ditching my class right now. I did quite well on Introduction to Scientific Thinging (or IST from now on). I got an 8 out of 10 and surprisingly most of my classmates failed. What surprsises me is that I didn’t study much for the exam, I just read the chapters of the book and studied from previous exams I got online.
But I need to change. I need to focus on myself and on making the lives of people around me easier. I need to help myself and everyone around me.
And by achieving small accomplishments every day I think I’m getting closer to that. When everything you do or try to do leads to frustration, you just don’t find a purpose on anything. And that’s what needs to change: I need to find a purpose and I have to avoid getting frustrated.
Let’s start right now.